Chapter 12
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Richard Whitfield was not, by nature, a man given to grand gestures on behalf of people who weren't technically his family, and this is precisely what makes what he did in the second week of September worth setting down plainly, without irony, because it is one of the only times in this entire story that he acts like a man capable of more than his usual careful remove.
Camille had not stopped trying to find Odessa. By the tenth day she had exhausted every number she had, had called the Red Cross hotline so many times she'd memorized the hold music, had posted on two different message boards people were using that September to try to locate missing family, all of it circling back to the same wall of no confirmed information, and she had reached the specific, private despair of a seventeen-year-old who has run out of actions to take and has nothing left to do with her fear except carry it. Richard found her crying in the hotel bathroom on the tenth night, which was not a thing she had let him see before, in seventeen years, not once, because she had absorbed, from somewhere in that house's whole architecture, the understanding that Richard was a man you did not bring your mess to. "I can't find her," Camille said, before he could ask, because saying it first felt like the only control she had left.
Richard stood in the doorway for a moment. Then he did something that surprised both of them: he came in, sat on the edge of the tub, and said, "Give me everything you know. Every number. Every name. Every scrap."
He worked it the way he worked a case, methodically, using resources a man with his particular standing had access to that a family without them simply did not: a contact at a law firm's Houston branch who could make calls the public hotline couldn't; a partner's cousin who volunteered at the Astrodome doing intake and could physically walk a name through a list faster than any phone tree could search one. It took him four days, working every evening after office hours he was, technically, supposed to be spending on his own displaced clients, and on the fourth evening he came into the hotel room where Camille was doing homework she couldn't concentrate on and said, without preamble, "They're at the Astrodome. Both of them. I have an address for the FEMA trailer they're being assigned, it's not ready yet, but I know where they are right now, tonight."
Camille was in the car within ten minutes, and Richard drove her the four hours to Houston that same night, arriving after midnight, and this, a man who had asked his stepdaughter almost nothing about her own face in seventeen years, driving through the dark to deliver her to the one relationship in her life that made no sense within his own family's careful architecture, remains one of the few unambiguously generous things Richard Whitfield does in this whole story, and it should be counted, honestly, alongside everything else that gets said about him later, because a person is allowed to be a landlord in his own house and also, once, without being asked twice, drive four hours in the dark for someone else's daughter.
The Astrodome by the second week of September had settled into a grimmer, more permanent-feeling version of the same crisis: cots in rows further than the eye tracked easily, a smell of too many bodies and disinfectant fighting each other for control of the air, volunteers moving through with clipboards and water bottles and the specific exhausted competence of people three weeks into a crisis nobody had trained them for. Richard's contact met them at a side entrance, walked them past the line, and it took another forty minutes of searching row by row, cot number by cot number, before Camille saw, from thirty feet away, in a section near the far wall, a woman she recognized instantly even from behind, sitting on the edge of a cot with her arm around a girl who had her knees pulled up to her chest.
"Odessa."
Odessa turned. For a moment, long enough that Camille would replay it for years, trying to read everything that had been in it, her face did not do what Camille had expected, which was some version of relief, of joy, of the reunion Camille had been picturing the whole four-hour drive. It did something more complicated: it registered Camille, registered the fact of her showing up, registered, and this was the part Camille would understand only much later, understand it eventually as entirely fair, the fact that Camille had arrived clean, rested, driven there by a stepfather with a car and a law firm's resources, into a room where Odessa had been sleeping on a cot for eleven days with everything she owned in one bag, and that whatever this reunion was about to be, it was not, could not be, a simple and uncomplicated joy, however much both girls, underneath everything, actually did feel it.
"You're here," Odessa said, finally, standing.
"We've been trying every day. I didn't know if—" Camille stopped, aware even as she started the sentence that finishing it honestly required admitting a fear she wasn't sure Odessa needed handed to her on top of everything else. "I'm just glad you're okay."
They hugged, both of them, for a long moment, in a way that was entirely real and entirely complicated at once, two girls who loved each other meeting in a building that made brutally, physically visible every single difference in what their two lives had actually cost to maintain, and it was in the parking lot afterward, an hour later, saying goodbye because Richard needed to get back for court in the morning and there was, as yet, no way for Odessa and Yolanda to leave with them even if either family had thought to suggest it, that Camille said the thing she would spend the rest of her adult life trying to take back.